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sometimes. [21 Oct 2009|08:31pm] i feel like.. im dying.. i had a 104.2 fever today.. took a ice bath. right now its at 100.7 i feel a lot better. i miss my girl.. i love you. <333

the days. [19 Sep 2009|09:11am] the days roll by. long a slow. idk. well 2 weeks ago someone stole my new phone and my wallet. with about almost 200 bucks in it. and the phone i got i just spent almost 300 bucks on it. and i only had it for a day. really annoying. so i dont have a bank account right now so im pretty fuck. no id's and stuff. it sucks. i got like 3 checks and all together its about 1,100 bucks.. and i really need to pay my bills. but i can't take a day off work to go to the dmv. so idk. just really annoying. well im done talking about this. <333

depressed. [30 Aug 2009|08:13pm] im nothing.... fucking nothing. <333

[23 Aug 2009|11:03am] Well i just moved in with ryan a month ago. so nice to live with him again. i finely got my own room. its so great. i started working more to. I'm going to be trying to get in this photography thing at my work. fuck portrait. i wanna do action sports. and proms and dances. that would get me more hours and it would be way funner. well right now im in a pretty shitty mood... not having the best of weekends. speaking of weekends. last night i ran the sound at this place for 5 bands. haha. i never worked on sound boards haha. it was cool yeah i wish everything could just been good. but in my world everything is not. but the things i really dont care about... <333

...... [20 Jul 2009|09:49am] [ mood | down ] why is it me out of everyone that always gets fuck over. im sick of it. all i do is nice to everyone treat them with so damn nice. all i get back is bullshit. well i just found out i gotta move out tonight. fucking tonight. i wish i just had the money to own my own house. i hate this. i haven't had my own room in years. i've been sleeping of floors and couches for that past year and a half. i feel fucked over. idk anymore. it seems like i have no friends. just people. nothing special about them anymore. just nothing. idk i feel alone. i wish for a lot. i need to stop doing that. im so pissed. like beyond pissed. idk its been a bad year. kind of. mostly a really bad summer. bye. <333

shitty [19 Jul 2009|10:11am] thank you. im watching mad max. hahahahahhahaha blah life sucks. like really sucks. <333

getting 1,200 bucks. [14 Jul 2009|10:38pm] yippy. i just got a new board. its amazing. and my new wheels are amazing!!! i love skateboarding so much. i haven't been this happy in a long time <333

Testing my will.. [10 Jul 2009|02:08pm] i might be getting that tattooed on my left side of my neck. idk. next week. there has been.. so much on my mide.. it seems like im so confused about everything.. i dont know. i feel empty. do you ever feel like that? no fun. <333

Nothing [06 Jul 2009|09:05am] [ music | portishead ] I've got nothing thats true. but the further I go.... I wanna go home.. <333

[04 Jul 2009|12:02pm] [ music | Radiohead. ] I miss her more than anything. I love her is much. the end. <333

[04 Jul 2009|10:12am] i feel like someone is just laughing at me. im trying and trying. and going nowhere. everything i do just has a bad ending. everything seems wrong. never going right. i don't even know whats right anymore. its about that time. to smoke <333

[04 Jul 2009|08:53am] im alone. <333

...... [29 Jun 2009|05:48pm] im hurting.. i hate myself. ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Journey To The End...| <333

i feel nothing. [29 Jun 2009|05:25pm] i feel so empty. im stuck in the path that i created. i want out. i wish i could just close my eyes and start over. but its never going to happen. i dont know what to do.. i wish i could make everything perfect. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! im screaming inside with a happy smile. no one knows. i just dont know anymore <333

[21 May 2009|12:16pm] waiting. i fucking hate it. that's i do. =/ i hate it. <333

[18 May 2009|09:16am] [ mood | excited ] 4 more days! <333

Sleeping in. [15 May 2009|10:22am] [ music | I'm on a boat! ] Never felt so good. Woke up grab my phone. miss calls.. 4 new voice mails. Look at my texts. I don't remember texting at 5 in the morning haha. blah. wanna sleep more. 2 Journey To The End...| <333

life. [14 May 2009|09:00pm] [ music | Skateboarding. ] I'm hurting. But what can I do. I just can't take this anymore. I don't wanna take it anymore. I'm sick of this pain that I have inside.. No one seems to see how deeply I'm hurting and the pain just grows and grows. I feel like screaming. I don't know anymore. Can't breath.. Need to take a deep breath and relax. But I'm shaking. I can't calm myself down. I hate this feeling. God I feel so alone.. ahhh. Going to go get some fresh air.. why.... btw I like peach green tea. 2 Journey To The End...| <333

[13 May 2009|01:45pm] Fuck This! <333

looking [05 May 2009|12:37pm] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | jack johnson ] I'm looking for a place. (Claremont area) Not looking to good. I need to file for unemployment. sad.. I'm hungry One day I'll look at this and laugh.. True story.... Read it in a book.. <333

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